I entered the Con with a bit of an identity crisis on my hands. Gen Con’s 50th year is a little odd to me. I’m finding myself more passionless, more ambivalent, about being here. It’s interesting. I used to pride myself on my nerdiness, and now I’m just, kind of, here.
I’m not sure what happened. Maybe it was the breakup of my gaming group. Maybe it’s the fact that I keep buying nerdy things like RPG rule books and board games and never get much of a chance to play them. Real life comes at you fast: things in the house need fixing, work gets crazy. There’s school stuff, job stuff, family stuff. I’m not super great at prioritizing my enjoyment of tabletop gaming, but is tabletop gaming still even a priority? Should it be?
About a six months ago, I volunteered to run the new RPG Star Trek Adventures for the fine folks at Modiphius. Star Trek has been a fixture in my life, and Modiphius offered me some store credit to do it (basically, I ended up getting a free core rulebook), so I set up a couple of sessions of an adventure they put together called “Entropy’s Demise.” It’s not the Star Trekiest of Star Trek stories, but it’s a fun one about an away mission and a good introduction to the game’s rules.
The game is a lot of fun, cribbing some good mechanics from a number of different systems. I look forward to maybe running for people at home once I know the rules a lot better.
My big purchase of the day was Starfinder by Paizo. I know the basic premise is that it’s Pathfinder in space, and I could probably homebrew that for a group, but the art is fantastic, it’s fat with a lot of information, and Paizo puts out entertaining stuff enough that I wanted to support them.
After all that, it was dinner with friends, old and new, and we got to check out the Rick & Morty: Total Rickall game. We had a lot of fun committing random acts of betrayal and card murder. Also, I am very jealous of those who are staying at the JW Marriott in downtown Indy. Man, that place is poshy and has some lovely views of Indianapolis in the starlight.
As I was taking the long walk back to my car, I realized that while I was playing games, I wasn’t thinking about this dumb nerd identity crisis I’m having. I was just having fun. In this weird time where everything seems bad, it was nice to have this port in the storm for a few days. The news has been getting me down. (Coincidentally, I just found out about the Barcelona attacks. My heart goes out to those affected.)
That’s the end of day one. I’m going to see if I can talk to some people today about games and making games… but I also want to save that for a book I want to write. See you tomorrow.